Can I be Jewish and still believe in Jesus?

I'm thinking about becoming Jewish but I can't get my love for Jesus out of my head. Being Jewish would mean the best thing for me but this freaking love for Jesus is like ingrained in my skull like I was brainwashed to believe in him as a child! I'm not saying Christianity is wrong or Jesus didn't exist but Christians blindly followed him but if someone else pops up and says they're the return of Jesus they laugh him off just as they say we Jews did. Can you guys please help me out, I believe in Jesus but not so sure he is who he said or the Christians (and Muslims for that matter) tell me who he was as the actual Messiah. This issue is really getting in the way of my Jewish studies because I feel pulled in two different directs. My Jewish friends say that the messiah hasn't come yet and may not ever come but my Christian and even my one Muslim friend have tried to help me out by saying that Jesus is the Messiah sent from God or as many Christians believe is God which lol contradicts what the Christian Bible actually says about Jesus and how Jesus addresses himself and his father (which is God). I'm sorry for my rambling on and on this issue is just so dear to my heart! Please explain this mess to me:)