Confused: adoption or not, no reliable guidance?

The best thing I can tell you is that babies are wonderful.... when they come at the right time. It doesn't sound like it is the right time for you. I couldn't personally have an abortion, but that is a decision you have to make for yourself. As far as adoption is concerned, it can be a very loving thing to do for a family that can't have babies of their own. Do you want to be involved in the baby's life? There are all kinds of adoption options. Contact an adoption agency and talk to them about your options. Remember, you can back out any time.