Could I have a speech disorder?

i've had this problem too. first of all, don't feel shameful or proud about anything. everyone is equal and everything we do is selfish. there is nothing super special about you because you are just another person in the world, so don't feel self concious. Just relax. say what you want to say, because that is simply all there is, nothing more. don't feel self concious, just do have standards that will meet your basic needs and wants and safety. we are all separate vessels with the same vulnerable needs in mind. you're in no rush in life. we are all going to die, and rushing will only get you there quicker and/or make for a bumpy ride. just have this in mind. and i suggest listen to music that calms your soul and have it in mind. personally i've had this problem, and I think it's really a mental thing, mind over matter, your mindset.