I want to end my life!! No one wants me! I'm a loser to my parents!?

Hi I'm an 18 year old. I'm from a village in south India. People here are usually poor. But my parents worked hard and are well off financially. And then we went abroad from India . But they keep comparing me with the "hard-working" kids back in India who struggle and get scholarships to university. I recently took the cbse exams (Indian exams) and got 87.8%. I got an acceptance into University of Nottingham(needs over 80% to get accepted) which is a good one. But I didn't get a scholarship (it needs 90%). They love to put me down because of this. They tell me I'd be a total loser without their money. They tell me I'd be fishing and laboring in the village if it wasn't for them. They tell me I'd be equal to s*** if it weren't for them!!!!!!!! I don't know what is their problem!! Why do I need a scholarship if they can easily afford the college fee?? Its $15,000 per year which is my MOM's 2 month salary. I am not a bad guy. I don't drink, smoke or party like many other rich kids do. I am still a virgin and I plan to remain until marriage. Moreover, I used to be a long distance track star in high school. I am still a good runner since I love cross country and road racing. They tell me that I should learn from the kids without money who study day and night and become successful on their own without parents' help. Whenever we visit our village, they have long chats with these poor guys...about their hardships and how they struggled to get their scholarships...and then make me feel worthless. I feel so miserable. I feel like a loser in life. Sometimes I feel i should just overdose on pills and die. Let them do whatever they want! spend their money on the "poor hardworking kids" or adopt someone better or whatever the F***. I'm sick and tired of this!! Please help me!